Radioactive-Imagine Dragons (Lizzie Holmes Rough Draft Cover)

Miss playing for you guys at your apartment! This is my work in progress song at moment "Radioactive"  Thanks for all your support for me in my music guys hope everything is well for you guys love you! Im sorry I'm pitchy and off a bit but again its a sneak peak 

Things You Should Know About Tuesdays: Neuroblastoma Kids

Imagine being 2-3 years old (most occur in children under the age of 2).  Having a condition only 4 per million children have.  A condition that causes tumors to grow along the nervous system outside of the brain.

Picture having test after test run, in dark and scary rooms with loud and frightening machines.

It seems that every grown-up you see want to hurt you with a needle to get blood.

Then you sit in a big chair in front of a big desk, while your mom and dad cry.

And then suddenly more hospital visits.  You start to recognize that you are driving to a place that scares you and you begin to cry even before you arrive.

And suddenly there is a weird thing on your chest. But they seem to be able to get blood out of it so no more horrible pokes.

And then then the nurses start giving you "medicine" to make you "feel better".

But you don't feel better.  You feel tired and sick to your stomach.

You hurt and you don't know why  

You have to wear a mask everywhere you go and you can't do the things you used to be able to do.

You feel like you never get to be at home anymore.

You can't sleep through the night anymore, because either you wake up sick or someone wakes you up to "get blood", or "take vitals" whatever that means. 

Its not all bad I suppose,  You get ANY food you like cause all the grown ups seem to be very worried about how much you eat.  You get to watch lots of tv.  You get to meet famous people and have lots of grownups tell you how cute you are.  You get to see clowns and dogs, make music and be the nurse's helper.



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Meet Penny Rich

I wanted to give a little background on me.  I was born and raised in Palmyra New York.   In 2002 i had two elders walking door to door signing christmas carols.   I had a feeling that i should listen to them.  Two weeks early i prayed for guidance and direction in my life.  And i found it with two elders.  When they were talking to me i felt like i already knew what they were teaching me was true.    I have had a lot of struggles in my life and i found my biggest strength through the Gospel in my life.    I lost both my parents to death and struggled with it alot.    I know that  i will see them again..  I had the spirit whisper alot  of comfort through my life to me .

February 23, 2014

Yesterday I started a Twitter account, an account at a micro-blog website, and the second tweet that I posted is that Trevor Hicken is a Sombie. I misspell it on purpose; although, it is a little disrespectful to people with insomnia. Trevor doesn’t have good sleeping habits. When you hang out with a Sombie, there is a good chance that you will become one, not getting enough sleep, always feeling tired, dozing off during many important activities. This new generation doesn't know how to have good sleeping habits. I see many people struggle at school.

It started on a Friday, a few weeks ago. Trevor and I spontaneously went to a Leaves' Eyes concert. We thought that the concert would start early and on time like the Demi Lovato concert that we went to the following Tuesday. Michael Angulo went with us too, but he was too scared to attend the concert because the line led to a show called Moodsmash or something like that, a wrestling show. It looked like a circus. Michael thought that it was inspired by Satanic themes. It turned out that there were two events happening, and the concert was in a room next door. The concert hall was very tight. I was surprised how small of a venue that it was. We were all standing, and I liked this style better than the big stadium that Demi Lovato's concert had. We were hoping that the concert would start at 7. There were 4 bands playing that night, and we also hoped that they would be performing first or second. The concert actually started about 8:30. Leaves' Eyes played third after Arcane Dimension and Atrocity.

Although Atrocity has been around for almost thirty years, I liked Arcane Dimension more. I am one of those people that doesn't like heavy death metal. The melodies are hard to pick out, and every song sounds the same. Alexander Krull is the singer of Atrocity, and he really engaged the audience, but I would characterize it as demanding participation. Their music had a mosh pit break out. I feel like the guy that started it was paid. I was one of the first people that he bumped into. I am not into moshing, so I walked away. Atrocity's music didn't do much for me; although, they are from Germany.

Arcane Dimension composed understandable music. The singer was a little weird, and her personality reflected how amateur the band was. Another way she was weird is that she tries to dance like a belly dancer, but she isn't very good. She went off stage between songs to change her attire to that of a belly dancer. They had fun rhythms, but they didn't have a percussionist. The percussion was played by recording and speakers. The band boasted an electric cello. It was cool, but it made me feel like they bought it to make them more successful and original as a band, calling it their secret weapon.
Leaves' Eyes was amazing. Alexander Krull is married to its lead singer of Liv Kristine, and the thing that I enjoyed the most is to see their relationship between each other. One thing that I learned is that it is hard to understand someone or something with just one perspective. A second perspective is minimum to understand something in a good way. It's like reading a book. A new word comes, and you may think that you understand it from the context; however, you have a more true understanding of the word the next time you come across it. The second perspective of Alexander Krull was a family man supportive respectful perspective. His presence was similar to before, but his intimidation disappeared to a warm fatherly identity. Liv Kristine is an excellent singer and their music is uplifting. Trevor said that the combination of Alexander Krull and Liv Kristine's singing is called beauty and the beast. One thing that was interesting is that all the members of Atrocity and Leaves' Eyes are the same, but Liv does not perform with Atrocity. Another thing that was cool was how Liv Kristine met with everyone afterward. I was a little shy, but I wanted to get both Alexander Krull and Liv Kristine's autograph on my Leaves' Eyes shirt in honor of their marriage and how much I respect them. Trevor was right in there, but I took my time observing and absorbing the situation.

"Pray?" by Isidro Zapata

What? I sat their stun for a second. Did I hear him right? He went on and say you write down the pros and cons of each choice then pray. When God gives you an answer then you do what he tells you to do. I looked at him and replied “I will I promise”.
I looked down on the floor and asked him if he could please help me up? I was embarrassed to have to ask for help to get out of the chair. As he helped me up he asked if I needed help to my car? This just pretty much just broke me and showed me where I really am.
For a split second her voice rang loud and clear in my head. I made up my mind in what I am going to do no need to pray.
As I got into my car I had to sit and rest so I went and turned on the radio. The voice coming through the radio just started speaking about the exact situation I am in!! Everything I had been dealing with, but how? How could this be? Every single word he spoke seemed it was just for me to hear and no one else. God knows, what we need to hear and at the right time in our lives.
I felt so torn about this whole mess. It was so clear to me yesterday in what I wanted to do. In reality it is not so easy to throw the truth away.  Just thought all I had to do was sign my name & give everything up for a fake love.
Tonight though, it is not easy to walk away. Up to that point my choice was easy to make! I truly, felt that this is all I can ever have and why let it go?  I know, this is all wrong but it is all I have. Her words repeat themselves in my head  “For me to be honest with myself & where I am in life and who will be there for me like she is!!” She said it like it was a fact “No, one she said!” So I need to be honest with myself so I can have something in my life that is not real.
I drove home even more mixed up then I had been all day to the point where I could not even write a letter. I tried for over three hours just to write one letter but for some reason I felt so confuse and all of a sudden I was unable to do the basics.
I open up my heart to God and even though he knows everything I let it all go and tell him everything. How I truly feel and that I am not asking for much. I did not write down the pros and cons. I just told him and asked him why do I even care?
As I cried out to him and broke down I felt peace like I have only felt at one other time. Then I open up the book and started to read. The more I read the volume of her voice was slowly going away.
God you know that I would like a family to have a son of my very own. Have someone that love’s me for me nothing else. I finally told him what I can do and what I can’t do and that who ever she is would in a way overlook what I can’t do but just to think about what I can do.
God please I am tired of being alone and I really need you more then ever. I am scared and do not want to go through this life all alone I know you are there for me but just like you said Adam needed a help mate I need one too. I confuse my sin and truly am sorry.
Tears kept coming and I kept talking to him. The more I spoke the more love I felt and that it will be okay. I kept saying I was sorry over and over again. I just had no more words to say.
I felt as though he broke something in me. I felt his love true love and what was I thinking and that this church is the truth. I give up!! Going to truly give this matter to you.
I felt your love in my heart. I felt so ashamed for messing up and what I was going to do and just give up something real for something fake.
Only you Lord can help me and please help those who are having a hard time and might trade in a fake love for what the world makes you think is better than you. You know me better then anyone and I really need you to move and help me in this area. Get some thing that is not real over something that is? That can be any thing in a person’s life. I know more then ever the church is the truth!!! No matter what others say the Bible and Book of Mormon and all the other books are true and this is the true church.
You God showed me love and I know you will come through for me in this life and that I would not have to wait until the next truly have peace in that!! Thank you God even though I am a very flawed man thank you.